The Thing That Would Make Everything Okay Forever

The Gospel Coalition 2024 Book Awards Medalist · Christianity Today 2024 Book Award Finalist

For years, psychedelics were my religion.

All I ever wanted was The Thing That Would Make Everything Okay Forever, the panacea, the cure for what plagued me. From those first moments when I tasted the earthy pulp of a psilocybin mushroom, it was love. Psychedelics were my sacrament. They shot me into cathedral vaults. The promise of eternal life through chemicals glittered seductively, but hid a yawning abyss.

The Thing That Would Make Everything Okay Forever tells my story of psychedelic devastation and spiritual rescue. It chronicles my trajectory from acid enthusiast to soul-weary druggie to psychedelic refugee. I finally found The Thing That Would Make Everything Okay Forever―in the last place I thought to look.

1. Opening Credits
2. Epigraph
3. Prologue
4. Chapter 1: The First Taste Is Free
5. Chapter 2: Godless Light
6. Chapter 3: Initiation
7. Chapter 4: Glutting the Sensorium
8. Chapter 5: Darkness Risible
9. Chapter 6: Magical Love
10. Chapter 7: We’ve Got to Get Ourselves Back to the Garden
11. Chapter 8: With Gods Like This, Who Needs Demons?
12. Chapter 9: Through the Valley
13. Chapter 10: It Is Well with My Soul
14. Chapter 11: Tasting the Real Thing
15. Closing Credits